Baby Bella: The Fighter

My heart is full of love for a baby I’ve never held or even met. Her name is Bella and she IS a fighter. Baby Bella has been diagnosed with Trisomy 18 or Edwards Syndrome. Born Monday January 24th, she weighed 4 lbs 6oz and was 16 inches in length. She is fighting for her life as all these babies have fought and are still fighting. It brings to mind this verse:

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.” - John 14:1

This verse got me through after I watched my precious Lilly fight for her life. I’ve seen in four days people from all over come together on facebook in prayer for this beautiful life. From the beginning when Doctors were trying to convince her parents, Virginia and Tom to take their daughter off the ventilator that was helping her breathe.. These Doctors wouldn't perform the surgery Bella needed to remove a hernia that was preventing her to breathe. Now because of prayer, work, sweat, and tears, Bella is safe in the hands of Doctors at CHOP (Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia) to have the surgery she desperately needs. More than anything I LOVE to see prayers being answered!

Psalm 46
"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging."

Virginia, Bella's mother, I want you to know that I think about you and Bella all the time. I pray for you all the time. Please remember that the Lord knows the desires of your heart. Bella is fighting for you! May the Lord continue to give you strength. Always look up! :) Praise Him in this storm and keep fighting for your precious daughter. I know what it is like to be a mother watching your baby fight for life and wanting SO badly to make everything better and all you are able to do is watch. I remember praying and telling the Lord to take me instead of my Lilly. Stay strong!

Remember: There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears. There will a day when the burdens of this place will be no more! What a wonderful day that is going to be!

Headbands and Beanies CHEAP

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Morning Sickness.. SUCKS!

They really should rename it.. All Day Sickness! After my doctors appointment January 6th, I couldn't keep food down. After about five days of not being able to keep food down, I called the doctor and they prescribed Zofran. IT WORKED!

I went back to the doctor this past Thursday, January 20th and had my first ultrasound. When she put the ultrasound wand, <-- don't know the proper name for it, on my tummy it looked like the baby was waving. So cute! They ended up changing my due date to August 15th, which makes me super happy.. the sooner the better.

The baby's heartbeat was 172. A little girl's heartbeat?!?

Possible Baby Girl Room Ideas!

This is a Ballerina Painting I found on Etsy. I will find out the store name for you! This painting I invision hanging over the crib.

This is one of three crib bedding options. This one is from Babies R Us.

This is option number 2 from Target.

This is option number 3 from Target.

These wall shelves with frames and baby accessories bring a cute splash of color!

Is this not the cutest pillow??? From an Etsy shop called chunkymonkeyluv!

I love signs and birdhouses! And I love the colors!

I'm speechless!

Okay so I'm in shock! For Christmas this year I got a kindle, a Northface Jacket, Guy Harvey shirts, and two positive pregnancy tests. Yes.. baby #3 is on the way! At first I was a little sad (and this makes me feel bad) because I had this pregnancy planned out. I was going to get into the LPN Program, graduate, get a great job, possible sell our house, and then have another baby. I guess God had another plan. I admit, and I don't want anyone to get upset with me because I'm upset with myself, I cried when I found out and few days after.

Even though I had a healthy baby after Lilly, I still can't help being a little apprehensive and scared about this pregnancy. My first doctors appointment was Thursday January 6 and it went well. Oh course I was offered Genetic testing again. I guess once high risk always high risk. And again I refused all genetic testing except ultrasounds. Whether this baby is healthy or not, this is my child and a precious gift. No genetic testing will truely prepare you to leave the hospital with empty arms.

After my appointment, I felt a little down. I am not sad about being pregnant, I am sad about possibly having to put off school another year. I refuse to be sad about being pregnant because just like Lilly and Dylan, this baby deserves my happiness and excitment.

Michael and I have already picked out names! Girl: Faith Elizabeth Knox and Boy: Tanner John Knox

Faith Elizabeth is the name I picked out and I have been praying over since Lilly passed away. Her name means Trust consecrated to God. I believe it has taken my faith in God to get me through so much in the past 4 years and her name is dedicated to that faith and struggle.

Can you tell by now that I'm hoping for a girl? :)